In her first public video statement since the tragic death of her beloved friend and talk show personality Stephen “tWitch” Boss, Ellen DeGeneres fought back tears.

DeGeneres expressed the difficulty of the past 11 days for everyone, acknowledging the pain and confusion felt by many. She also mentioned the unfortunate fact that they may never truly understand the circumstances surrounding Boss’s passing.

Stephen “tWitch” Boss, known as the friendly DJ on “The Ellen DeGeneres Show” and a renowned dancer from “So You Think You Can Dance,” tragically took his own life, as confirmed by the LA County Medical Examiner. Ellen DeGeneres had previously shared her heartbreak upon learning of his death.

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