“I never expected to find myself in this situation,” Timpf, 35, wrote.
“Actually, I’d prepared myself for every outcome but this one: First, I expected that I wouldn’t get pregnant, especially not naturally.
“Once I did, I expected that I’d probably miscarry. I mean, I am 35, which makes mine a geriatric pregnancy, medically speaking.”
The Fox News contributor added that learning she was pregnant felt nothing like she had imagined.
“In my imagination, I would wake my husband, who would sit up abruptly, look at the test, and be overwhelmed by this life-changing moment, leading us into a passionate embrace that we’d remember for the rest of our lives,” Timpf said.
“The reality? I had a hard time waking him up, and when I finally did rouse him, he said he couldn’t really see the line and rolled back over to sleep.
“For me, too, it was less of an arresting moment, and more of a slow realization: The line kept getting darker.”
Timpf detailed how she and her husband first heard their baby’s heartbeat on June 27, the day of the presidential debate between Joe Biden and Donald Trump.
“We heard the heartbeat for the first time, and then we heard it again,” Timpf shared.
“It was never this exciting emotional rush of OMG, WE’RE GOING TO BE PARENTS!!!!
“Because I was far too aware of all things that could go wrong to become intoxicated by such an impassioned reaction.
“There was also something else working against the possibility of me experiencing all-encompassing astonishment, and that was, well, I was just too damn tired.”
A downhearted Timpf expressed sorrow about not being able to share the moment with her mother, who died on November 5, 2014.
“I feel a sense of unity and solidarity with all the women who have gone through this,” she wrote.
“If I’m being honest, though, I also feel sadness about there being one woman in particular whom I’ll never be able to share this connection with: my mom.
